Just a Thought

I was just thinking, I wish I could see all of my faults. Something on my mind.

Life

Awww life. Sometimes I just wonder who's pulling the strings both for good and bad. So this weekend was nice, I spent sometime Friday with James and celebrated Kirk's birthday on Saturday. So how many of you would need an alarm clock to wake up at say 10 a.m.? 11? Daresay, noon? I am here to tell you that I evidently require an alarm clock in order to wake up before 1:48 p.m. That's right, I turned over Saturday morning, errrr afternoon to realize that I had slept through the first game that I was suppose to supervise and had almost missed the second game. Luckily I had some one working with me when usually I wouldn't who was able to cover for me, phew!

So right now I am in one of those weird phases where, right after I take a girl out, she'll inevitably end up having a boyfriend who isn't me. Oh well. Not sure really how to prevent it, but sadly I can see where it can happen twice more this week! HAHAHA what you gonna do? I wonder if I should pursue girls more aggressively. I have been doing good lately with expressing my feelings towards girls with my actions, however at the moment I am putting out indecisive actions, because well... I feel indecisive. Seems like just when something looks like it is going somewhere, it fizzles something else springs up, it fizzles.... It kind of feels like I am a giant vat of soda and every once in awhile someone drops Pop Rocks into my vat in different areas, and I go towards the fizzle, then when I get there the original fizzle is gone, and I here more pop rocks, and go follow them, and so on. I think that analogy was a result of blogging close to three. HAHA oh well.

My classes are very interesting. They all just blow my mind in so many different ways. Marriage Prep has been a super awkward/informative/silly/fun/inspiring class. I have had a number of times in class where I have introspected and found things I definitely could improve about myself. On Friday, Professor Barlow showed a video that really helped put things into perspective. The video was just pictures of old couples smiling, holding hands, kissing, just being happy together. It really just helped me put into perspective that the only thing I need to be successful in is marriage. When I was watching the video, nothing meant more to me then having a happy, loving marriage, and really deep down I think that is how I really am. Money doesn't matter, having a successful career doesn't matter, early failures in life don't matter. If I can just get to where I am old and in love life has been fulfilled. I wish I could have that feeling of the simplicity all the time.

My international business course is pretty much the exact opposite. The professor has had a wide variety of jobs, in marketing, sales, profit-loss, management, entreprenurial, being a CEO, in a wide variety of international settings as well. The guy has done it all. I wonder if I have what it takes to succeed in business. I just do not think that I am cutthroat enough. I think personal financial planning would be a much better fit for myself. None the less, I have really enjoyed the exposure my international business class has given me.

Astronomy is the last course in which I feel really stimulated by. The class is in the planetarium with these AMAZING cushy seats that recline way far back so you can look straight up. Space has always intrigued me. It has always had a calming influence. I love just looking at the stars and pondering my life.

You know what, I think I like someone.

I am going to ask her out till she tells me to stop! Take that! I'll report back later.

Break and Return

Howdy Howdy! Well break was dandy. I felt like I could separate myself from everything in Provo, both my educational pursuits and otherwise. HAHA I am watching the National Championship game right now, and I keep typing the wrong words (I tried to type economical instead of educational in the line above, I don't have any economic pursuits at all). Couple of things on my mind. So I really don't like Mitt Romney, I haven't conducted a full research of him by any means. He seems very swarmy to me. He switched on abortion, on the you tube debate I thought some of his answers were lame, and the thing that might bother me the most is that during his term as governor, gay marriages were legally issued, the first state to allow gay marriage, there are now two, and nine recognize marriages performed in Iowa and Massachusetts. Now Governor Romney spoke out against the form in which the ruling was brought down(a one vote majority descision by the Massachusetts highest court), however he spoke against gay marriage too late. In my opinion, he could have tried to prevent the issue from coming to the surface. In California, proposition 22 was passed reaffirming marriage as being between a man and a woman. Granted Massachusetts is a predominatly liberal state, who knows if the bill would have passed, California, another largely liberal state passed such a measure. I guess the bottom line is that I just don't think that I could vote for him, despite his religious affiliation. I have a hard problem with politics at this point in my life. I find it much easier to not vote at all, then to either a)vote for a large party candidate that I don't completely agree with, b) vote for an unorthodox candidate that I feel is closer to what I want but won't win, or c) what I did the last election I voted in, the California Governor recall, voted for someone I thought would be funny to have in office and that someone was Gary Coleman, who you should wikipedia right now if you don't know who he is. How do you get motivated to vote? How do you compromise your beliefs, by sometimes voting for someone whose stances are completely contrary to some of your own? I am by no means set on my political views if you could even call them that, and would enjoy feedback.

I was thinking about some things over break. I came up with the number one thing I don't want to ever have happen, get divorced late in life. So over break I had to split a lot of time with mom and dad, it wasn't that bad just pretty much doubled the time committments while I was at home, no big deal didn't really bother me at all. What did was how tough it has got to be for both my parents. My dad has a girlfriend it is kind of weird, his girlfriend has two kids that are 12 and 10 if I'm not mistaken, my mom still hasn't gone on a date. Either way it's weird, whether it is starting a new relationship late or being alone. I don't know who's life I would pick. I was wondering to, if you were say 50 and found yourself in a relationship that you weren't fulfilled in, would you stick it out our would you get a divorce that late in life... hmm

I am going to take marriage prep should be fun my firstday was good. Battery dying Night!